& identification: maia
Tidbits I am completely neutral to everything. I don't like to see the world as black and white. When it comes to debates, I usually stick my head out, or support either side as a Devil's Advocate. But I respect both sides in an issue. Of course, I also hate bashing of any kind with a passion.When I was little, my sister and I went to our junior high school's tennis team, even though we both were bad at the sport. It was a very cheap summer program, and there were lots of bees. When my sister got stung, her screams and cries traumatized me. Now I live in fear with bees, even though I have yet to be stung.I have very obscure interests. I'm usually very bland with my interests, especially those with higher popularity. I lose interest very quickly, and I'm not often tied with the fanom. There are some exceptions though.My eyes are very weird. Due to muscle problem, I can't see straight. One eye is very far-sighted, and the other is near-sighted. So my eyes are both myopic and hyperopic.I hate this particular scratchy noise like crazy. I shudder with the sound of a "rip" from a fabric wrap, often used with connectors.My nerves often twitch, usually when I'm spooked in some way. It's rather scary for my neck to twitch especially, my head goes god-knows-where.I have a perculiar weakness for glasses, especially for girls who wear them. This fact makes me rather biased toward characters who wear them.Because of a lack of food in the house, I hardly eat or drink like normal people would. I have a small appetite that gets full very easily. In addition, I'm particularly stubborn about the food I eat. I'm very picky when it comes to my breakfast and dinner, like a set of rules almost. "Ketchup only goes when there are a lot of fries, but only home-baked fries; fries bought outside get no ketchup", for example.Because of my little sister, my family hasn't intended church in years. My father, though, is quite spiritual, and my mother is a Catholic. I don't remember having much religious experiences. I can't say I entirely agree with everything on religion, but I do have some sort of faith lingering around.I am a bit of a pervert. Not an extreme one - I'm usually not turn-on'ed by anything, actually. In this running debate of "sexuality couples", I wish to say that I am completely neutral. Speaking than I'm rather asexual, I have no disgust for any straight, gay, lesbian couples, in fact I quite like relationships in each category. In fact, I'm get severly annoyed whenever people bash any sides (anti-yaoi, anti-yuri, etc.). Personally, no sexuality-based relationship is better than the other, and each side has its faults. Just because you see a bunch of fangirls go for one thing, doesn't make it right to hate something, especially when you're in a community for girls rather than boys.YES I USE INTERNET EXPLORER AS MY MAIN BROWSER. (And god am I tired of hearing from Firefox Elitists.) I really don't have no care about browsers. Not only am I too lazy to switch, but I really don't care about the other benefits of the browsers. All I want is just to browse the internet. End of story. Don't need RSS, don't need tab reinstall, or anything of the sort. The only reason I see myself using another browser is because I need to test my sites for cross compatibility. Besides, Firefox works way too slow on my computer.I'm unromantic. It hurts in a way because almost everybody has to have romance in their category, when I cannot feel it for anything. In addition, romantic fiction always seems "over-done", and the fanfiction world most definetly kills it. In addition, I like to be realistic - love isn't in every corner then we think, and friendships should be encouraged as well. So I really don't have any true "OTP"s. The ones I do like, I'm not much of a fan of. Either that, or they are for more perverted reasons.My free time consumes mostly of playing video games and the computer. Other than that, I read, watch television, and occasionally go out.I'm a bit of a tomboy - I really hate shopping for clothes, doing my hair, or prettying up myself. It doesn't mean I don't have any fashion sense, I just choose not to obsess with it. I like to wear whatever is comfortable.I'm down-to-earth, so immature things will not pass my interest, including nails and boys. Politics are also not an interest, mostly because it depresses me.I had always hoped to be a writer, or a journalist, some time in my life. I have written a lot more than drawn (because my art is kinda bad). I treasure writing much more because it is more creative and imaginative than most types of drawings. Plus, it's less lazy for the viewers. Sadly, because of how lazy we are becoming, writing is pushed aside for art now. I do hope to relive that talent though for other writers.I love role-playing. It brings me to a world outside my home, and let's me forget my problems. I role-play mostly with my sister, and our plays have required years of acting and drama. I had to play males as well, so I have a talent in making a thousand voices.When I was young, I had a speech problem, therefore I needed speech therapy. Due to my struggle learning words, I learned English slower than others. And because of this, my parents did not teach me Spanish when I was younger, hence how it became difficult to learn it now.As you can tell, I also have a huge weakness for the chivalrous kind of guys. I don't expect a "knight in shining armor" to come sweep me from my troubles, but a gentleman is also a type I can't help but love. A knight as well as a gentleman is a plus. This doesn't mean that I don't respect the more enigmatical characters, however, but they usually aren't my favorites.I am a bit of a feminist, but at the same time, I hate it. I prefer both genders to be respected on the same level, despite our differences.Just because I'm a good student doesn't mean my life was easy in school. Far from it. It was aggravating to make a single friend. And then there was fifth grade, the worst year of my life. I don't know how it happened, but rumours spread like crazy about me having lice or something, and then almost every fifth grader in the school was against me. I wish I was exaggerating. People isolated themselves so I had to sit by myself, my projects was thrown out, my homework was thrown away, rumors spread, notes were passed, people ran away from me, insults were given, I was completely
lonely, my counselor only made things worse for me by "telling" on the
people I talked about, and my library books were lost.& the journeyCurrently, you may call me Maia, though my other alias include 1/2, Mint, Celia, and Angel (which is based on my character's name, not the religious figure). I am the maintainer of two websites - Rurushu.NET and Sol-Aria.ORG, both of which were hosted and bought from DreamHost. I am a high school student, currently a senior. My GPA is at least 4.0, and I appear as a studeous person. However, despite my good grades, I'm actually pretty lazy around my work. I don't really study unless I truly need to, and I don't put much effort in my homework as some others do. I don't take extra tests (other than some AP courses), and don't participate in many clubs. My only thing in mind is to get far enough for college. Why, might you ask? My life, however, is far from normal. The fact that I have an autistic sister is a huge impact to me. Because my father is disabled, and my mother has to work and take care of my sister, most of my life involves just home. I go to school, then go straight home. Same with my older sister. My job is not only to act like a mother of the house, but to still keep up with school. I suppose going to the internet keeps my sanity up. I wish not to discuss more of this, for I generally don't like talking about my personal life, but let me just say that has become very difficult part on myself to have the normal things a child in my generation usually has. I have to learn to make plenty of sacrifices, in things I rather not lose, and so do the rest of my family. We argue, cry, scream, and go to hell every few months.The lack of experience is also the reason for my naivite. Interestingly enough, being inside my house so long has given such profound interest in traveling. Even walking around new streets excite me, to be able to see things I only seen in replicated or written form. Despite my harsh life, I try not to let it bother me. I get depressed occasionally, but I try to find the positive things in life. Toward others in real life, I am shy as hell - for I don't make much contact with anybody but my family. I would run away from the company of others, and I would try to divert the attention of other friends. I can only really talk in a group, not one person. I spend most of my time in school day-dreaming about other things than talking with others. Often, I can become easily influenced with my emotions - I am sensitive to critism, insults, and different opinions. Hell, I had a tendency to cry when hurt (I was bullied for a very traumatic few months). Because of my lack of connections with others, I have a hard time making friends, which hurts my ego alot. Once you actually get to know me (and I mean REALLY), I can be the complete opposite. I am really serious - that's why it's hard to make jokes for me. Though I am sensitive to critism, the important thing is - I never let those feelings affect my outer appearance and my relations with others. Because in truth, I am quite a passionate person myself. I am not afraid to speak my opinion (though it gets in trouble a lot). I take no sides in debates, and sometimes oppose the other for the sake of balance, no shit from others, and truly take hate in even the smaller things. And, of course, I often rant. I rant more in real life than online, though. My rather lack of "fun" often makes it difficult to make friends with. People even assume I can be a real bitch. Of course, that is not true at all. I have a caring heart to take care of others. I am known for always being comforting and generous. My generosity has often brought being taken advantaged of, though. I truly do believe in helping others, so despite my objections to abuse, I continue to bring aid in whatever I can. Doesn't mean I don't appreciate attention, but I don't entirely need it alone to be happy. For some reason, bringing happiness to others makes me glee as well. So I'm shy, but passionate. I'm sensitive, but opinionated. I'm strict, but loving. So... what is the real me? I don't really know. My personalities switch every now and then. That's why I named this site "Robot Girl" - because like determining the gender of a robot, it is difficult to determine my "true" persona. The reference to Persona 3 was a joke, though (Get it? Persona? Persona 3? Ahaha... ha... Okaaaay...). My future right now looks blank. But with each step, I hope to open a road for myself. After four years of college, I plan to finally rent a house, until I buy my own, or live with my dear sister until then. Independence is my key goal - while maintaining a good, well-paying job as a website designer and living in a simple yet expansive house. However, I do not wish to marry at all. If I want a family, I might adopt a child in the future. But after being tied down in my home, do I really want to be tied again with a family? I have hope to travel to the future, around the world, and see the things and make the most of my life before time wears me down. & loveanime/manga series        Other mentions: .hack//SIGN, +Anima, AIR tv, Ah! Megami-sama!, Angelic Layer, After School Nightmare, Azumanga Daioh, Bleach, Chobits, Chrno Crusade, Code Geass ~Lelouch of the Rebellion, Crest of the Stars, Cyborg 009, Eureka Seven, Excel Saga, Death Note, D.N. Angel, Dragon Knights, FAKE, Fullmetal Alchemist, Gravitation, Himawari!, Kanon, Kino no Tabi, Le Chevalier D'Eon, Love Hina, Magic Knight Rayearth, Maison Ikkoku, MONSTER, Neon Genesis Evangelion, Nerima Daikon Brothers, Ojamajo Doremi, One Piece, Ouran High School Host Club, Rozen Maiden, Rurouni Kenshin, Shaman King, School Days, Spiral ~suiri no kizuna, Suzumiya Haruhi no Yuutsu, Tenchi Universe, Vampire Knight, Wolf's Rain, Yami no Matsuei, Yuugiou, X/1999, xXxHOLic Video Games      Other mentions: .hack (series), .hack//G.U. (series), Banjo-Tooie, Devil May Cry (series), Disgaea (series), Harvest Moon (series), Fatal Frame II, Final Fantasy IV, Final Fantasy Tactics: Advanced, Final Fantasy X-2, Kingdom Hearts, La Pucelle, The Legend of Zelda (series), Pokemon Crystal, Phantom Brave, Psychonauts, Soul Calibur II, Sonic the Hedgehog (series), Super Smash Bros. Melee, Viewtiful Joe Females   Other mentions: Aegis, Belldandy, Blossom, Celine Jules, Chii/Elda, Colette Brunel, Dizzy, Princess Euphemia, Haruhi Fujiota, Hazuki Fujiwara, Hikaru Shidou, Hikari Yagami, I-No, Lina Inverse, Lucy/Nyuu, Kazooie, Kotonoha Katsura, Mimi Tachikawa, Mikuru, Mint Adnade, Miyako Inoue, Princess Natalia Lazu Kimuelasca Lanvaldear, Refill Sage, Rouge the Bat, Rikku, Rin Tohsaka, Rosette Christopher, Ruki Makino, Saber, Skuld, Simca the Swallow, Sora Nagino, Sora Takenouchi, Subaru, Tamao Tamamura, Tear Grants, Trucy Wright, Tsukasa, Vivian, Ms. Yukari, Yuko, Yuzuki, Princess Zelda males    Other mentions: Abel Nightroad, Albedo, Akito/Agito Wanajima, Ash, Cain Hargreaves, Cless Alvein, Dante, Daisuke Niwa, Dark Mousy, D'Eon deu Beaumont, Dororo/Zeroro, Eagle Vision, Edward Elric, Flynn Scifo, Fon Master Ion, Gourrey, Hiroshi Nakano, Hisoka Kurosaki, Itsuki Minami, Jade Curtiss, Kamui Shirou, Kazuki Hihara, Keel Zebiel, Keroro Gunsou, Kimihiro Watanuki, Kouji Minamoto, Kouichi Kimura, Kousuke Asuzaki, Krad, Marche, Luke fon Fabre, Minato Arisato, Shuichi Shindou, Sol Badguy, Sora, Taichi Yagami, Tidus, Tsuzuki Asato, With, Zelos Wilder PairingsSome relationships (whether romantic, familiar, rivalry, or friends, not in order by dominance) I love are: Aegis/Minato, Al/Ed, Akito/Sana, Asch/Luke, Arietta/Ion, Atoli/Haseo, Belldandy/Keiichi, Chii/Black Chii, Cless/Chester, Dark/Krad, Dizzy/May, Dororo/Keroro, Eagle/Hikaru, Eagle/Lantis, Euphemia/Lelouch, Flynn/Yuri, Gourrey/Lina, Guy/Luke, Hisoka/Tsuzuki, Jr./Sakura, Johnny/Ky, Ikki/Kururu, Ikki/Ringo, Ion/Luke, Link/Midna, Link/Zelda, Lucy/Kouta, Ken/Sora, Kratos/Lloyd, KOS-MOS/Shion, KOS-MOS/T-ELOS, Kuro Ky/Ky, Ky/Sin, Ky/Sol, Mario/Peach, Namine/Sora, Saber/Shirou, Shadow/Rouge, Shuichi/Ryuichi, Sonic/Shadow, Subaru/Tsukasa, Suzaku/Lelouch, Tidus/Yuna.othersOther than those two things, I sadly don't have interest in the other worlds - including celebrities, television, books, or music. I have some tastes in some songs, sadly, I generally pick up only from anime/manga, or from the radio (therefore, I don't know the titles or artists).My notable shows I watch daily are (that aren't anime) The Golden Girls, Law and Order: SVU, The Nanny, Reba, and I have loved some cartoons (Freakazoid!, Batman, The Fairy Oddparents, and some others not in my mind right now). As for movies, I usually like anything Pixar pulls out, and I love some of Dreamworks' older films like The Prince of Egypt and El Dorado. I have other interests in movies, but once again, I do not remember them now. My favorite books would be 1984, Fahrenheit 451, Lord of the Flies, Jane Eyre, Macbeth, Memoirs of a Geisha, Of Mice and Men, and some others that I have read in the past that don't cross me now. I generally love classical literature, but I hate romantic fiction. Not that they are bad, but it's entirely overdone for me that I lost interest in the genre. & the answerEmail: maia[AT]rurushu.net   Love me? ♥ :: Updates Blog 「The caged bird can't be free if she can't locate her chains.」  |
